Thursday, July 8, 2010

One of my worst days....

I really do not know why. I am not supposed to feel this way...but I m just...
that's y, i m really very very very bad, bcz Im not supposed to feel this way...

My feeling now, is just like Germany: lost in the game, when they put high hopes on it...Spain just simply won Germany...

And, I thought I just missed something very important....

I did sth that I can consider stupid...silly....

After class, I straight away went to my room again...and I cried...
I really donno how....I have put so much effort, but this is wad I get....

I kept talking to myself...I still cannot believe wad had just happened...Im tat stubborn...
Why...can someone tell me why??

I stayed in my room, cried when im not supposed to......
classes of the day had just finished, and I thought I can "express" my feeling at the table...

I fell asleep...this is the best thing that I think I can do to forget many things...

After sleeping for 2 hours, I got up again, and went for that quite aimless ADP meeting...after tat, my life was aimless....until I went to the department of Students' Affairs to ask sth.....

Mr Michael said I have just missed a chance of becoming one of the members of the Students Representative Council, the highest council in the college. Many Staffs were expecting me to get nominated...but wad was I doing during the nomination?? I was crying in my room!!!! I told them that bcz i cant cope, tat's y don wanna join....but deep in my heart, it's the opposite way....

Feeling disappointed, I went back to my room again, start to on my laptop, and thinking how to type this post...Just right before I start, my cacated phone received a msg, showing that I have 11 missed calls....all of them were the staffs!!! I have reli disappointed them...they called me during the nomination, but I was crying and sleeping....haiz.........I have just missed sth tat i think i m not supposed to...it's too late...im seriously very stupid....




Father Lord God, I really wanna pray that you will take control of all the situations...calm me, grant me strength and wisdom, do wad is right and help me to learn to let go.....everything is just too sudden...Amen...


going for another preparation later.....God, grant me strength to go on with my days...Amen...






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